A major triumph last night.
[note: don't let the length of the post scare you off - 80% of this post is composed of lyrics that you may read or skip at your leisure]
After months without a working printer or speakers I managed to install our printer/fax/copier/scanner/refrigerator/bidet on our computer in less than three minutes. Who knows why I failed so many other times.
Then I attacked the sound on our computer. In the fall Lisa had stepped on the control unit for our speakers, rendering them useless. Subsequent efforts to install a working unit failed and we've been deaf for months.
[You know, most of the time when we had sound I'd have the volume on 'mute' and not give a dang, but the minute it was taken away it seemed every day there was a different song or video that we couldn't enjoy.]
So I figured out that we were missing a driver (thank you medion.usa.com!) and thought I had it solved.
No sound.
I went to bed, I went to work, I came home and had the computer freeze, restarted it . . and a few minutes later AOL belted out "Welcome! You've got mail!"
Hot dog, hot dog, hot diggity dog! I'd forgotten to reboot to finalize the fix!
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So I've been enjoying quite a bit of misc. noise online tonight . One of these is Jackson Browne's The Pretender, a Christmas gift from my mother-in-law.
She was quick to point out that the song didn't mean what she originally thought it did. It was intended as a song that empathized with my life, with work on one hand and a full family life on the other and not so much as a spare moment in between.
The song does that, but I think you'll agree there's a whole lot of resentment and regret and pity to go along with it, none of which applies to me. Here's the lyrics:
In the shade of the freeway
I'm going to pack my lunch in the morning
And go to work each day
And when the evening rolls around
I'll go on home and lay my body down
And when the morning light comes streaming in
I'll get up and do it again
Amen
Say it again
Amen
I want to know what became of the changes
We waited for love to bring
Were they only the fitful dreams
Of some greater awakening
I've been aware of the time going by
They say in the end it's the wink of an eye
And when the morning light comes streaming in
You'll get up and do it again
Amen
Caught between the longing for love
And the struggle for the legal tender
Where the sirens sing and the church bells ring
And the junk man pounds his fender
Where the veterans dream of the fight
Fast asleep at the traffic light
And the children solemnly wait
For the ice cream vendor
Out into the cool of the evening
Strolls the pretender
He knows that all his hopes and dreams
Begin and end there
Ah the laughter of the lovers
As they run through the night
Leaving nothing for the others
But to choose off and fight
And tear at the world with all their might
While the ships bearing their dreams
Sail out of sight
I'm going to find myself a girl
Who can show me what laughter means
And we'll fill in the missing colors
In each other's paint-by-number dreams
And then we'll put out dark glasses on
And we'll make love until our strength is gone
And when the morning light comes streaming in
We'll get up and do it again
Get it up again
I'm going to be a happy idiot
And struggle for the legal tender
Where the ads take aim and lay their claim
To the heart and the soul of the spender
And believe in whatever may lie
In those things that money can buy
Thought true love could have been a contender
Are you there?
Say a prayer for the pretender
Who started out so young and strong
Only to surrender
I certainly appreciated her effort to find the song (even calling a DJ for the name). And besides, her daughter had once famously made the same mistake. Lisa once lovingly told me that the Pearl Jam song Betterman (my favorite) reminded her of me.
Fine and dandy, except that it's a song about a woman who wishes she had a better man.
Oopsie.
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Speaking of PJ, here's a video of Eddie Vedder's solo efforts on the Into the Wild soundtrack.
The song is Hard Sun. I heard it on a local station and quickly fell in love with it. I certainly wouldn't mind getting a copy for my birthday in March.
When I walk beside her
I am the better man
When I look to leave her
I always stagger back again
Once I built an Ivory Tower
So I could worshi from above
When I climb down to be set free
She took me in again
CHORUS:
There's a big
A big hard sun
Beating on the big people
In a big hard world
When she comes to greet me
She is mercy at my feet
When I see her pin her charm
She just throws it back at me
Once I dug an early grave
To find a better land
She just smiled and laughed at me
And took her bruise back again
There's a big
A big hard sun
Beating on the big people
In a big hard world
There's a big
A big hard sun
Beating on the big people
In a big hard world
When I go across that river
She is comfort by my side
When I try to understand
She just opens up her hands
There's a big
A big hard sun
Beating on the big people
In a big hard world
Once I stood to lose her
When I saw what I had done
Bound down and flew away the hours
Of her garden and her sun
So I tried to warn her
I turned to see her weep
Forty days and forty nights
And it's still coming down on me
There's a big
A big hard sun
Beating on the big people
In a big hard world
There's a big
A big hard sun
Beating on the big people
In a big hard world
(Repeat chorus 6x, fading out)